Thursday, December 31, 2009

再会


よかったね、大ちゃん。





下のBlog・・・・最期じゃないじゃんっ!

さよなら、2009年

さてさて、年末最期のBlogになりました。

今年は不景気の中、ひーひー言いながら暮して、ダーリンも私も胃がきりきりする毎日の中、大きな達成もあったし、皆健康で無事にすごせたので、ま、平均にして、「よい年」でした。

話はかわり・・・

私の就職ですが・・・



ないっ!



と、いう事で、ずっとやりたかった、Volunteerをする事にしました。近くの大きな病院のERにて。変なスモックみたいなものをかぶり、一回につき2時間位のお手伝い。小さな患者さんにぬいぐるみをあげたり(そういえば昔海君が小さい時ER行ったら、ぬいぐるみもらったなあ)、ラブに書類を取りに行ったり、お水をあげたり・・・雑用。そういうの好きだわ。4日からスタートです。楽しみ~!



でも、まだまだ就職活動はしないとね。


さて、大掃除しないと。外は雪景色。窓をあけると雪が入ってくるので、寒い。埃がさらに積もるよ~!(言い訳?)


来年もよろしくお願いします!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Feel so guilty

I am very sad.....


because....

Baby's teeth were getting darker after he started his iron therapy for his anemia.

So, I called dentist to make an appointment...

I had to wait about 3 months....

Front teeth (8 of them) were getting worse and worse even after I stopped his iron therapy.


Today, this bitchy dentist was so mean to me telling me I should stop nursing him immediately and I shouldn't have fed him through nights so long and stuff....

She said there is nothing we can do since he is still small. The first layer of his teeth are gone and what I see "discolored' is the second layer of natural teeth.

So, her suggestions were

1.Stop nursing.
2.Give him fluoride at night
3. Avoid sugar
4. Avoid sharing foods/cups/utensils
5.Come back in 6 months

I now so regretted that I didn't take supplement for myself, I didn't stop nursing him through nights, and didn't take him to dentist earlier (well, I did but he had to be seen by big hospital which took me for ever!), and so on....

I thought nursing baby was very good. I never gave him bottle, I hardly gave him juice, I brush his teeth while he screams every nights.....I thought I was such a good mom but this dentist just ignored all my feelings and blamed on me!!!

I immediately contacted this wonderful NP I have been depending on since baby was born and she made me feel better and after reading some websites, I felt better but I still feel so guilty. What's gonna happen if these teeth stay like that and he gets teased? Is he going to have a pain soon? Will he go through painful procedure? I have a lot in my mind. He doesn't know anything. All what he does is calling me all the time, stalking me all the time, and he just wants to have fun and be with me. I hope I can keep him smiling (even though he doesn't have white teeth now) and won't be teased or lose self-esteem. Mommy will find you solutions to you...!

I lost all my baby teeth by the age of 3, it could be genetic that we have weak teeth, if so, it may be better....at least he won't be teased for having bad teeth.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I feel so guilty. I know it might not be my fault but I still feel so bad......I thought taking him to dentist today was finally solution and they will clean his teeth and be better. I can't wait to talk to his pediatrician tomorrow. I won't have a good night sleep tonight....

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Post-Christmas








































































クリスマスでしたね~!うちは、今年はRecession Specialで、去年あげたプレゼントを取り上げたので(悪い子だったから)、それをまた包装してあげました。でもそれを一番喜んでいたわ!(ま、一応他にも新しいゲームとかいろいろあげたけどね!)

いつも行く教会には顔だけ出して、終わり。大ちゃんが寝ちゃったから、最後までいるのかな?と、思ったのに、Lちゃんは、「もう十分味わった」と、わけわからない事を言って、退散。まあいいや。キリストさん、お誕生日おめでとう。

Eve、教会に行く前に、毎年恒例で、お友達の家でパーチー!でも、どんどん酒が弱くなってる私は、たったのビール一本と、白ワイン一杯で終わり。どうしちゃったんでしょう?でもそれより、皆が作った料理やデザートが本当においしくって、幸せでした。ありがとう。写真撮り忘れちゃった。:(

日本からは、数々の品々が両親、働いてる人、友達、兄弟(姉弟だけど)から届き、心温まりました。ありがとう。

クリスマスは、いつも通り、Lちゃんのママの家へ。またでっかい七面鳥をいただき、残り物は、お母さん全部ゴミ箱へ・・・!毎回ながらに、私の心は痛い。(もちろん私達もたくさんお持ち帰りを頂いたよ!)

今日は朝からミーは歯医者さん。この前のBlogにも書いたけど、金歯を入れられるかと思ったやつ!とりあえずテンポラリーさんが入り、2週間後に真っ白な歯が入るはず。楽しみだなあ。やっぱり歯は大切だよね。

お家に帰ると、家が綺麗になっていました。でも・・・Lちゃんが片付けないダンボール箱(かれこれ2年以上。それもコンピューターの横にずっとあって、本当に邪魔だし、かっこわるい)はちゃんと存在していました。今年中に片付けないと、ゴミ箱行き命令を出したので、どうなるやら?

そして・・・今朝、友達に子供が生まれたみたい!!!あ~、早く抱っこしたい。おめでとう!!!数日中に見に行くからね。

あ~ん、なんか他にも書き忘れた事たくさんあったけど、まあいいや。別に日記帳じゃないんだもんね。Blogって難しいわ。皆ちゃんとUpしていて、本当、脱帽!今だに写真の位置を決める方法とかよくわかってなくって、てきとうだし・・・。ちゃんとしないと。

もう今年ももうっちょっとね。悪いようで、悪くもなかった今年だ。来年は厄年なので、引越しやら就職で盛り上げたいと思います。よろしくね。

Monday, December 21, 2009

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Our annual meeting with Santa

Even though I am Buddhist and my older son considers himself Buddhist (little one was baptized at Catholic church), we LOVE all the holidays!!! Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy New Year, etc...!!!!

Enjoy your holidays! Starting from today, I am officially a party girl!!!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Happy Birthday, my love!!!!


Dear My Love

Happy Birthday to you. We have nothing but time, memory, wrinkles, children, and love to grow now.

I want to be with you for rest of your birthdays and I want you to be with me for rest of my birthdays.

I love you!!!!

Love always,
Your Princess

PS I keep it simple for here!

More pictures from MODELING!




Friday, December 11, 2009

Gold tooth


I was always wondering why my front tooth (not the front front one but the one next to the front) is getting yellow as I get older. I spent some $$$ to do whitening at dentist but it didn't change. I asked dentist why and she told me because I had root canal on that tooth and needs to be covered! I had root canal when I was in elementary school, I didn't know I needed the cover and noone told me before! Dentist requested the treatment to insurance company and I was waiting for the approval.

I finally received a letter from insurance company yesterday, so I called my dentist to make an appointment. YAY!

Then...I realized it says WHITE GLASS WITH GOLD CROWN. I got panicked!!! I thought I was going to get something like gold tooth! Or at least gold framed tooth like this picture! You know those old rappers and old people used to have....me with gold tooth or yellow tooth....I prefer yellow tooth.

I contacted some people asking questions about what the insurance meant on my approval letter but they weren't sure, so I called the dentist back TO CANCEL the procedure!!! I don't want a gold tooth nor gold framed one!

I told the receptionist about my concern and she started to burst out to laugh. She says noone does that and it will be my other teeth color. She told me gold tooth is expensive, if I changed my mind!

I was so embarrassed but relieved at the same time.

I should have this done by the end of this year. Great!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I am a model! Hehehe. ;)


My friend told me one student was looking for moms who breastfeed more than 1 year and who could be model for photo shooting. She wanted to use pictures for her project...I contacted the student and she took great pictures! Thank you so much! The student was so so so so so so sweet and I wish her the best to make a good project! I also thank my friend who told me about the student! Without her sharing the info, I couldn't have this beautiful pictures! There are more pictures...I will post them later but for now, I gotta go pick up big one! I am late!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

お揃い



双子ちゃんからもらった帽子。二つあったから、大ちゃんの親友(って事にしよう)に一つおすそ分け!二人ともかわいすぎ!?

いつもいつもいろんな方から大ちゃんに洋服を頂いています。いつもありがとう。本当にありがとう!!

感謝祭にて


何をしても怒らない犬。サンタもこれ位優しければいいのにな・・。大ちゃん、動物大好き!













サンタと同じ位の年齢なのに、超よぼよぼ犬達。





















なんだか、お揃いの服!?おばあちゃんと大ちゃん@感謝祭。(でもなぜか二人とも、クリスマス系?)

前夜祭?

これ、感謝祭の前の日。バルーンに空気(ヘリウムっすね・・・)を入れているのを見れるんだけど、これも大混雑。大ちゃん、この日は注射を何本も打って、ふらふら状態・・・。子供達の小児科の先生もきていました!もう数年して、大ちゃんがわかるようになったら、パレード連れていってあげるからね!(海君は何度も見て、もう飽きたみたい・・・)







Sunday, November 29, 2009

Meat


It might be hard to believe, since I live in the states and I am over weight Asian, but we hardly eat beef! But sometimes....I do crave for juicy red beef. My BF is VERY picky with beef and if he finds a tiny part he doesn't like, he won't eat it, so I usually just stay away from beef.

I asked my friend who has French chef husband and I believe she's also chef which part of beef I should use for steak and it's reasonable, soft, and doesn't have the part my BF doesn't like. She told me as long as we eat it under medium rare, skirt steak is good.

So, I got it. It looked good. I marinated the beef with salt, pepper, fresh garlic, ginger, soy sauce (What a surprise! I am SO Japanese!), Sake (hehehe), and those FRESH herbs I got for Thanksgiving dinner like rosemary and thyme. I usually have dried herbs instead of fresh ones because of my budget but I have been enjoying those fresh herbs at this time of year!!!

And...I cooked.

My older one said "It's like eating at a four star restaurant!" My BF said "Definitely encore recipe!" My baby, who is very picky eater, was eating it and my dog was loving it!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you, guys! I love those compliments! And...thank YOU to Yacchan! I should ask you more advices when it comes to cooking!

Oh...I forgot to write about Thanksgiving...hmmm....well, my older one was gone to his father, we went to my BF's mother's place, and we just stayed home. Because..........I got my monthly thing and I was dead. :( I can talk about this monthly thing for ever but I will keep it personal for now.

I can't wait to move to a bigger place, buy a huge dining table and invite many people for Thanksgiving dinner!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, hope everyone enjoyed thanksgiving weekend! Now it's time for me to look for a job!!!

Monday, November 23, 2009


最近うちは鍋ばかり。

今日は姉のBlog

~開いたゴマ!~in ニコタマ

に、おふくろの味、すいとんの事が書いてあったのが脳裏にあり、鍋の中にこっそり・・・!

やばい!!!!

おいし~!!!!

家族の反応はいまいちだったけど、私はご機嫌!ちなみに、このおふくろは、自分のママではなく、小さい頃いたお手伝いさんの事。やっぱり小さい頃に食べた物って今の好物になってきて、今でも彼女を見かけると、彼女のお手製ケーキをおねだりにしにいきます。彼女が他界するまでに(失礼な話!?)あのレシピを頂かないと・・・!!!

そして、これまた違う人のBlog

わWa NYC Japanese Culinary Studio

で、Korean townに売ってる海藻うどんってのがまた脳裏にあり、それも入れました。

うん、普通においしい!体と消化に良さそうだ。

皆のBlogが役に立った一日でした。ありがとう。二人とも、いつも楽しく読んでいます。

あ・・・・

ちなみに・・・うちには土鍋とコンロがないの。
電気コンロ。これはこのボロ屋では、しょっちゅうヒューズが飛んで、まっくらな中で食べないといけないので、誰か安く売り払ってくれる人がいたら、声かけて下さいな。よろしくね。

Friday, November 20, 2009

Photo blog????





OK, so...photo blog! ;)

Big one had hair cut at home. He has hair like mine. Very thick and dark. He wanted crew cut like my BF. OK, we don't need to take him to barber then!!!
WOW! You can tell our bathroom is dirty. We have asked our so-called-super so many times to fix it but he does such a poor job. He just makes more problems when he tried to fix it. :( I can't wait to move to somewhere where I can comfortably take a bath...!

Next...!


This boy....he loves to feed himself. He refuses to be fed. So...this is what's happening at meal time nowadays. I am so glad we have so many clothes for him! I have to change him at least 5 times a day!


The last one for today...!

I had 5 boys in this tiny house today! We baked cookies and made dumpling!




おばたりあん?


おっぱいを、こんなにあげるとは思わなかった。

だって、わたくし、上の子のときは最初から混合で、1ヶ月の時熱を出した時に、さりげなく断乳したの。おしゃぶりも3歳半位までしてたし、添い寝もほとんどしなかったから、結構フォーミュラ万歳!って思ってたのよね。

でも一つ気になったのは、お金・・・!すっごい高かった。あの当時(も)お金がなかったから、このミルク代は本当に痛かった。

今回は自称ナチュラリストLちゃんの希望で、絶対母乳!と。

でもそんなの無視して、妊娠中から使い捨てボトルをたくさん購入したりして、こっそりフォーミュラの準備もしていたんだ。


もちろん最初は苦労したし、痛かった。

でも慣れたら、こんなに楽な事はなかった。消毒とかないし、いつでもあるし、添い寝してもあげられるし、体に良さそうだし・・・。

けど・・・・・・・・・・・・・ミーのおっぱいはもう梅干ばあちゃん(なんだそれ?)みたいになっちゃったし、洋服は全部首周りのびちゃったし、ブラジャーなんて・・・・語りたくない程のものになっちゃったし、いつもはいらない甘い物が食べたくなるから、さらに太るし(言い訳?)、なんだか女性じゃないってLちゃんに言ったら、

「男性は絶対その発言は出来ないから、それはかなりWomen likeだよ。」と。

なるほど。って・・・納得してる場合じゃないの!

そう・・・私はWomanじゃなく、Girlでいたかったんだ!と、気づいた。

でも・・・31歳のGirlってなんだよ?そんなの怖いよ、母ちゃん。二人の子供両手に抱えて、スーパーと学校と公園の行き来して、悩みと言えば家計のやりくりと、夕飯の献立。

でもでも・・・だからこそ、Girlになりたかったのよね、わたし。最近服なんてほとんど買ってないし、髪の毛はいつもあげっぱなし(仕上げ時間20秒!)、ネイルサロンVisitはゼロ、ガールズナイトはゼロ(家飲みは結構してるけど・・)・・・・本当、これじゃあ私は立派な下町のおばちゃんのイメージにぴったりだわ。

昔はやったよね、おばたりあん。差別用語だと思ってたけど・・・。ま、そんな感じで・・・!よろしくね、おばたりあんな私。








だめよオオオオおオオオオオオオオおオオオオオオオオオオオオオオオオオオオオおお!!!
そんなの絶対だめ!!!

私は太陽のように輝き、おばあちゃんになったらピンクのウエットスーツを着て、若い男達からサーフィンを習い、その後Pina coladaでも飲みにおいで~!なんて誘っちゃって、Lちゃんがやきもちやくのが夢なのに・・・!(そんな行動がもうオバタリアン?)

誰か、こんな女を捨てた私を救ってください。

まずは、就職かね?働く女の人って輝いてるもんね。(でも主婦でもいつも綺麗にしている人って多いいか・・・ぶつぶつぶつ・・・)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Recession


I hear all the time and I am sure others do also....

"Shortage of nurses."

"Always jobs available for health care"

But................the fact is....no job for me!!! (YET)

It's like I need money to earn money. If I go to hospital to drop off resume, I need my BF to be home or hire babysitter, which means $$$$ loss.

When I call hospitals, they say "Submit your resume online"

Yes, I did.

They ignore it or send me email "Not hiring now but will keep your resume"

Went to job fair. No jobs for my position.

I changed my career. I went back to school. I graduated from school. I got my license. My American Dream should be here now!

What am I supposed to do now, Mr.President????

Taiko


Taiko....is Japanese drum.

My older son has been drumming over 1 year now.

I love the sound of Taiko, which reminds me Japanese festivals, the interesting people who play with him, all the wonderful events he participates, the depth of Taiko's world, and I love seeing him drumming. He looks proud of himself and he is shining when he plays Taiko. What a good decision we made to let him take the class!!!

On the other hand....karate....you know what karate is....

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

I still don't know what to do with this!!! :( It's a big frustration for both of us to be there. He doesn't like it and I don't know what's the best for him.

Should I stay or should I go? If you say that you are mine, I will be here til the end of time. So you got to let me know...should I stay or should I go??? (of course I am singing now!!!)

He told me other day, "Mommy, I like karate again. I want to go there everyday again."

Then again today, "Mommy, should I quit?"

Am I supposed to motivate him or let him find something he likes or ignore him???

It's hard to raise children............haaaaaaaaaaa.


PS By the way, this pic was taken at rehearsal for one of events. It was collaboration of 100 kids chorus, other Japanese instrument called Koto, Western instruments and Taiko. Really great performance!!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

友達のカメラにて


かわいすぎるわ、うちの子。(親ばか)

この唇見てたら、海君の小さい頃を思い出しちゃった。あの子はいつもよだれがすごくって、いつもリップを塗ったみたいにべたべたに光ってたよね。海君もかわいかったなあ・・・!!!(あ、もちろん今もかわいいけどね。でも今はもう「Cute」って言うと怒るの!「Handsome」なんだとさ。)

ところで、大ちゃんの後ろにあるバッグ・・・マザーズバッグとして1年以上使っているんだけど、これはママからのお土産。使いやすくって、毎日使ってます。でもそろそろ同じ形で違う柄もほしいな。(おねだり?)

たこやき娘


いつもかわいい彼女。今晩(今日じゃなく、1週間前位の話なんだけど)は、たこやき娘。

どうやったら、こんなにかわいくAging出来るのかしらね?アルコール消毒かしらね?やっぱり。

これからもNYの姉、よろしくお願いします。いろいろ教えて下さい。頼りにしているよ!!!

Uncle and Aunt's visit


産まれて初めて、叔父さんと叔母さんと個人的に会いました。

いつもは他の人がいるから、あまり話さないから、不思議な感じだったけど、やっぱり血の繋がった家族。

とても素敵な時間を過ごしました。ありがとう。

もっともっといろいろ話したかったな。

また来てね!!!

China town


I haven't been in china town but we were there last week and decided to stroll around! We were walking and eating at the same time, it was fun time!!! Then....I took my older one to his old day care!

This place was amazing! Without this day care, I couldn't live...! They took well care of him from 2 years to 5 (6?) years old!!! When I win lotto, I would like to donate some money towards this day care. I will never forget their kindness and care. Thank you.