Thursday, December 31, 2009

再会


よかったね、大ちゃん。





下のBlog・・・・最期じゃないじゃんっ!

さよなら、2009年

さてさて、年末最期のBlogになりました。

今年は不景気の中、ひーひー言いながら暮して、ダーリンも私も胃がきりきりする毎日の中、大きな達成もあったし、皆健康で無事にすごせたので、ま、平均にして、「よい年」でした。

話はかわり・・・

私の就職ですが・・・



ないっ!



と、いう事で、ずっとやりたかった、Volunteerをする事にしました。近くの大きな病院のERにて。変なスモックみたいなものをかぶり、一回につき2時間位のお手伝い。小さな患者さんにぬいぐるみをあげたり(そういえば昔海君が小さい時ER行ったら、ぬいぐるみもらったなあ)、ラブに書類を取りに行ったり、お水をあげたり・・・雑用。そういうの好きだわ。4日からスタートです。楽しみ~!



でも、まだまだ就職活動はしないとね。


さて、大掃除しないと。外は雪景色。窓をあけると雪が入ってくるので、寒い。埃がさらに積もるよ~!(言い訳?)


来年もよろしくお願いします!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Feel so guilty

I am very sad.....


because....

Baby's teeth were getting darker after he started his iron therapy for his anemia.

So, I called dentist to make an appointment...

I had to wait about 3 months....

Front teeth (8 of them) were getting worse and worse even after I stopped his iron therapy.


Today, this bitchy dentist was so mean to me telling me I should stop nursing him immediately and I shouldn't have fed him through nights so long and stuff....

She said there is nothing we can do since he is still small. The first layer of his teeth are gone and what I see "discolored' is the second layer of natural teeth.

So, her suggestions were

1.Stop nursing.
2.Give him fluoride at night
3. Avoid sugar
4. Avoid sharing foods/cups/utensils
5.Come back in 6 months

I now so regretted that I didn't take supplement for myself, I didn't stop nursing him through nights, and didn't take him to dentist earlier (well, I did but he had to be seen by big hospital which took me for ever!), and so on....

I thought nursing baby was very good. I never gave him bottle, I hardly gave him juice, I brush his teeth while he screams every nights.....I thought I was such a good mom but this dentist just ignored all my feelings and blamed on me!!!

I immediately contacted this wonderful NP I have been depending on since baby was born and she made me feel better and after reading some websites, I felt better but I still feel so guilty. What's gonna happen if these teeth stay like that and he gets teased? Is he going to have a pain soon? Will he go through painful procedure? I have a lot in my mind. He doesn't know anything. All what he does is calling me all the time, stalking me all the time, and he just wants to have fun and be with me. I hope I can keep him smiling (even though he doesn't have white teeth now) and won't be teased or lose self-esteem. Mommy will find you solutions to you...!

I lost all my baby teeth by the age of 3, it could be genetic that we have weak teeth, if so, it may be better....at least he won't be teased for having bad teeth.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I feel so guilty. I know it might not be my fault but I still feel so bad......I thought taking him to dentist today was finally solution and they will clean his teeth and be better. I can't wait to talk to his pediatrician tomorrow. I won't have a good night sleep tonight....

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Post-Christmas








































































クリスマスでしたね~!うちは、今年はRecession Specialで、去年あげたプレゼントを取り上げたので(悪い子だったから)、それをまた包装してあげました。でもそれを一番喜んでいたわ!(ま、一応他にも新しいゲームとかいろいろあげたけどね!)

いつも行く教会には顔だけ出して、終わり。大ちゃんが寝ちゃったから、最後までいるのかな?と、思ったのに、Lちゃんは、「もう十分味わった」と、わけわからない事を言って、退散。まあいいや。キリストさん、お誕生日おめでとう。

Eve、教会に行く前に、毎年恒例で、お友達の家でパーチー!でも、どんどん酒が弱くなってる私は、たったのビール一本と、白ワイン一杯で終わり。どうしちゃったんでしょう?でもそれより、皆が作った料理やデザートが本当においしくって、幸せでした。ありがとう。写真撮り忘れちゃった。:(

日本からは、数々の品々が両親、働いてる人、友達、兄弟(姉弟だけど)から届き、心温まりました。ありがとう。

クリスマスは、いつも通り、Lちゃんのママの家へ。またでっかい七面鳥をいただき、残り物は、お母さん全部ゴミ箱へ・・・!毎回ながらに、私の心は痛い。(もちろん私達もたくさんお持ち帰りを頂いたよ!)

今日は朝からミーは歯医者さん。この前のBlogにも書いたけど、金歯を入れられるかと思ったやつ!とりあえずテンポラリーさんが入り、2週間後に真っ白な歯が入るはず。楽しみだなあ。やっぱり歯は大切だよね。

お家に帰ると、家が綺麗になっていました。でも・・・Lちゃんが片付けないダンボール箱(かれこれ2年以上。それもコンピューターの横にずっとあって、本当に邪魔だし、かっこわるい)はちゃんと存在していました。今年中に片付けないと、ゴミ箱行き命令を出したので、どうなるやら?

そして・・・今朝、友達に子供が生まれたみたい!!!あ~、早く抱っこしたい。おめでとう!!!数日中に見に行くからね。

あ~ん、なんか他にも書き忘れた事たくさんあったけど、まあいいや。別に日記帳じゃないんだもんね。Blogって難しいわ。皆ちゃんとUpしていて、本当、脱帽!今だに写真の位置を決める方法とかよくわかってなくって、てきとうだし・・・。ちゃんとしないと。

もう今年ももうっちょっとね。悪いようで、悪くもなかった今年だ。来年は厄年なので、引越しやら就職で盛り上げたいと思います。よろしくね。

Monday, December 21, 2009

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Our annual meeting with Santa

Even though I am Buddhist and my older son considers himself Buddhist (little one was baptized at Catholic church), we LOVE all the holidays!!! Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy New Year, etc...!!!!

Enjoy your holidays! Starting from today, I am officially a party girl!!!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Happy Birthday, my love!!!!


Dear My Love

Happy Birthday to you. We have nothing but time, memory, wrinkles, children, and love to grow now.

I want to be with you for rest of your birthdays and I want you to be with me for rest of my birthdays.

I love you!!!!

Love always,
Your Princess

PS I keep it simple for here!

More pictures from MODELING!




Friday, December 11, 2009

Gold tooth


I was always wondering why my front tooth (not the front front one but the one next to the front) is getting yellow as I get older. I spent some $$$ to do whitening at dentist but it didn't change. I asked dentist why and she told me because I had root canal on that tooth and needs to be covered! I had root canal when I was in elementary school, I didn't know I needed the cover and noone told me before! Dentist requested the treatment to insurance company and I was waiting for the approval.

I finally received a letter from insurance company yesterday, so I called my dentist to make an appointment. YAY!

Then...I realized it says WHITE GLASS WITH GOLD CROWN. I got panicked!!! I thought I was going to get something like gold tooth! Or at least gold framed tooth like this picture! You know those old rappers and old people used to have....me with gold tooth or yellow tooth....I prefer yellow tooth.

I contacted some people asking questions about what the insurance meant on my approval letter but they weren't sure, so I called the dentist back TO CANCEL the procedure!!! I don't want a gold tooth nor gold framed one!

I told the receptionist about my concern and she started to burst out to laugh. She says noone does that and it will be my other teeth color. She told me gold tooth is expensive, if I changed my mind!

I was so embarrassed but relieved at the same time.

I should have this done by the end of this year. Great!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I am a model! Hehehe. ;)


My friend told me one student was looking for moms who breastfeed more than 1 year and who could be model for photo shooting. She wanted to use pictures for her project...I contacted the student and she took great pictures! Thank you so much! The student was so so so so so so sweet and I wish her the best to make a good project! I also thank my friend who told me about the student! Without her sharing the info, I couldn't have this beautiful pictures! There are more pictures...I will post them later but for now, I gotta go pick up big one! I am late!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

お揃い



双子ちゃんからもらった帽子。二つあったから、大ちゃんの親友(って事にしよう)に一つおすそ分け!二人ともかわいすぎ!?

いつもいつもいろんな方から大ちゃんに洋服を頂いています。いつもありがとう。本当にありがとう!!

感謝祭にて


何をしても怒らない犬。サンタもこれ位優しければいいのにな・・。大ちゃん、動物大好き!













サンタと同じ位の年齢なのに、超よぼよぼ犬達。





















なんだか、お揃いの服!?おばあちゃんと大ちゃん@感謝祭。(でもなぜか二人とも、クリスマス系?)

前夜祭?

これ、感謝祭の前の日。バルーンに空気(ヘリウムっすね・・・)を入れているのを見れるんだけど、これも大混雑。大ちゃん、この日は注射を何本も打って、ふらふら状態・・・。子供達の小児科の先生もきていました!もう数年して、大ちゃんがわかるようになったら、パレード連れていってあげるからね!(海君は何度も見て、もう飽きたみたい・・・)