Sunday, September 29, 2013

Natural climber

Manhattan rock n roll


これ。Manhattanの象徴。岩がごろごろ。でかい。次男、長男に続いて、どんどん上れました。岩を見つけるたびに登るから、目的地まで時間がかかった。

Love the huge rocks in Manhattan! I think there were so many of these before it became the way it is now....I think. Middle one followed the first one to go up! Good job! 

Saturday, September 28, 2013

"snow flower"


What can I tell you about this boy? I love him though he may not feel that much love from me. I do love you, my boy!

My middle one said "This is Snow Flower"

It was really tiny flower, white and soft....yes, it was like snow. 

Before we met Snow Flower, we also saw "Leaf Snow" which he meant for the falling leaves. It was amazing scene.

長男の後ろのお花を見て、次男が、Snow flowerと名づけていた。小さく、ふわふわな真っ白なお花は、本当に雪みたいだった。

このSnow flowerを見る前には、Great hillで”Leaf snow”も見たよ。枯葉が舞い落ちるシーンに、すっごい感動していた。

確かに綺麗だったなあ。 

Pulled by a little girl


こちら、私と同じく体を壊し、数日家に監禁状態だったお姫様。外にいるのが楽しくって楽しくって仕方なく、お兄ちゃんの手をどんどんひっぱって、歩いていたよ。

今日、初めてはっきりと、

ジアンニ!

お兄ちゃん!

大地!

って、言えるようになったね。どんどん言葉の数が増えていって、すっごいおもしろい!

She was in the house for last few days due to my condition and her coldness. She was like an animal freed from cage! She was pulling her brother all over. She was having so much fun today! What a wild girl!!!

And finally she was able to say clearly...


Geanny!

O-ni-chan!

Daichi!

Her vocabularies are getting better and can't wait to converse with her!!! I am waiting for our girls' talk!!! 

Breathtaking view


We have always lived in west side, so we hardly go to east side. Today we decided to walk a lot!

First, we had to stop by at my eye doctor to get checked up, then had lunch. This was at Amsterdam and 113th St. 

We walked to all the way to Central park...started with Great Hill...the destination was 59th and East side!!! It means....we had to cross over whole Central park!!!

After walking over 2 hours, we had to hop onto cab to be on time for my son's audition to opera (!!!!) but we made it through to 70th St and East side! Great job!!!

As we walked east side, we found this breathtaking view...it was reservoir at Central park. OH MY GOD!!!! I didn't know the view was this good!!! And the view of West Side was amazing. I am so used to see East Side from West Side, I didn't know we belong to this part of view! (Well, not really but hey!)

Next time, I must bring my fiance. I am sure he will enjoy the view but I doubt he will join the exploration! Come on, baby! Get up and enjoy your life with kids!!! Now or never!!! 

Thank you, kids, for being with me and spending wonderful time. I love every moment with you. I wish I could do this very often and I make sure I will be able to very soon! I love you, each of you, very very very very very much. 

このため池、Central parkにあるんだけど、East Sideから見る事がなく、今日見たらすっごい感動した!!!いつもWest sideからのViewしかみていないせいか、このEast sideからのViewは本当ため息もの!

1週間かけてこの悪魔のような病気生活を抜け出し、まずは医者にCheckしてもらはないといけないので、医者に皆(パパ以外)で行って、OKをもらった後、軽く昼食を食べて、そこ(Amsterdamと113丁目あたり)からCentral Parkまで歩き、ずっとCentral Parkを歩く事にしたよ。

Central ParkのGreat hillエリアは夏ずっとお世話になったから、もどってくるとふしぎな感覚でした。でも、夏とは違うね・・・って、いろいろ話しながら、夏にはなかった木の実や、枯葉、あとからParkレンジャーのおかげでりんごではなく、チェリーだとわかった木を見たりして、季節を感じながら、この超気持ちいい時間を楽しみました。

結局目標だった59丁目までは、コンサートをやっていたのでなかなか思うように前に進めず、70丁目のEast sideあたりでGive up!お兄ちゃんのオペラのAuditionがあったから、そこからタクシーで会場に向かった。

会場は、盲目の人たちの学校。とっても高級で、清潔で、いろんなFunctionがあり、感動。お兄ちゃんどうだったのかなあ?

わけわからない事言ってたけどね。 I did my best. I didn't practice enough. I messed up. I think I did well.どっちなんだ?がんばったって言ってるわりには、練習すればよかったとか、楽譜まで忘れているし、上手くやれたって言ってるわりには、途中でとまっちゃったよ・・・って言ってたし。

ま、どっちでもいいや。お疲れ様!!!

その後またCentralParkまで歩いてもどり、お兄ちゃんが小さい頃大好きだった公園に行く事にした。そこでもお嬢様の活躍ぶりはVideoを見てね。大興奮で、帰りたくないと暴れて、大変だった。

やっぱ、子供はたくさん外で遊ぶのが一番だね。

楽しい時間をありがとう。 

Back to summer


この木、何の木気になる木~!!!???日本のCMのテーマソングが頭の中を横切る。

夏休みお世話になった木!!!

かえってきたよ。また冬になったら帰ってくるし、春になったら帰って来るよ。

さ、これからCentral parkでのExplorationがはじまるよ~!!! 

Friday, September 27, 2013

疲れた。

目と鼻水だけだったのが、昨日は嘔吐、今日は体の痛み。どんどん悪くなっているのは、なぜ!?

この、ミステリーサスペンスみたいな私の体の調子は最悪だ。

気が利くようで利かないダーリンは、朝から「何食べる?」と、聞いてくれるのはいいが、Optionが、ベーグルか、シリアルって・・・。

お粥とか、スープとか、なんかあるじゃん・・・って思うけど、そんな事はいえないので(言えよ!)、黙って、そのまま痛みとともに寝てしまう・・・。ぐー。

寝ている間も周りで起こっている事には敏感で、まあダーリンは育児ってものは全然していなく、娘は家の中を行ったり、きたり。たまにおしっこやうんちをして、ダーリンに報告。放し飼い状態。

でも、起きると、「あ~、ずっと面倒看てて、疲れた」とか言うから、彼なりにやってはいるんだろうけど、なんか気に食わない。笑。

やっぱ、お母さんっていいね。絶対そんな育児しないもんね。

うちもそうだったなあ。ママがいない夜は、かなり寂しかった。パパは苛々しているし、御飯はまずいし、TVの趣味も変になるし。

やっぱ母ちゃんが元気じゃなきゃね。

子供達のためにも早く元気になろう。

って、こんな事夜中にやってる暇があったら、さっさと寝ろってね。はいはい。

Monday, September 23, 2013

Conjuctivitis

Oh boy. Horrible infection on my eyes! It started on Saturday. I went to work with eye patch on thinking it was just nothing. They sent me home right away and my eye got better. Then my other eye got swollen so badly last night I thought I was going to be blind. And I was in this morning! I couldn't see anything. My angel daughter was just laying on my chest watching TV all morning and asked me to put her to bed at nap time, so I was able to relax. My fiance took me to ophthalmologist while my friends took care of my middle one.

Initially doctors (yes! 3 of them!!!) told me I can't work next 2-3 weeks but I told them I wanna go back to work, so I will see them on Saturday again to see if they could clear me to go to work by then! 

I see people with conjunctivitis at work all the time. They are placed on antibiotic and we keep monitoring. Now I really feel their pain and I know what to look out for them. As a nurse, it's important to place myself in their shoes. 

Thank you, universe, to give me more teaching and I will be a better nurse once I return to work.

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Natural drummer?

 

 パパの声邪魔~!!!こんな曲を知っているとは思わなかった。いつでもどこでも歌い、ドラムを弾きたがる息子。早くスカウトこないかしらん?親ばか日記。

Papa! Why did you talk while he was drumming!? He loves to sing! I didn't know he knew this song. This boy surprises me everyday. I love you!

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Pirate of Manhattan


これは、どういう事だろう?朝起きたら、目の上が腫れあがってる。そこでかんがえた。最近自分の上司ともめていて、これはお告げなんじゃないか?と。「目上の人に気をつけろ」とね。だから、目の上に腫れ物が出来たのかも?この状態で仕事にいったら、すぐに自宅に帰された。仕事場としてはOKだけど、患者さんや家族がこの姿を見たら、余計な心配をするから・・との事。なるほどね。じゃあ、家でゆっくりさせてもらいますって言いたいところだけど、家に帰ったら子供達は大喜びで、母ちゃんゆっくり出来ない。ダーリンは寝てるし・・・。とほほ。仕事している方が、育児より楽だ。 

My eyelid is swelling and giving me super headache. By wearing eye patch, it makes me so nauseous. I feel so much pain for those who suffer from blindness. It must be so  uncomfortable. I went to work like this and they sent me back home right away because my patients and their loved ones will be worried and it could be contagious. OK, I go home to relax....but....no relaxing at home, kids are so happy to have me back!!! 

This is Japanese say....you have to respect your upper folks. When it's said in Japanese, it's actually written "above eye people". Now this got me thinking since I am fighting with my boss, this could have been a message to me that I have to respect my boss and think different way. This is a message from universe and I have to reflect on myself and my actions. 

Friday, September 20, 2013

I love you, son!


There is nothing wrong with mommy trying to help her son to get into school.
Right??? 

I made this chart, so he could see what's going to happen next few months, very important decision for high school. I really want him to try performing art schools as he didn't do so well academically and MOMMY KNOWS YOU HAVE SOMETHING SPECIAL IN YOU!!!
Well, thoughts for him is priceless but costs for preparation is almost bankruptcy.

愛する息子のために、高校受験へむけてチャートを作ってみた。でも、日本の高校や、NYCの頭のいい学校みたいな受験じゃなく、彼はPerforming arts系の学校のAuditionへに向けての対策。受験以外にも、太鼓、コーラス、オペラ、子供達のMentor役をやっているから、そのスケジュールでびっしり。母ちゃんの愛する思いはPriceless。でも受験にかかる準備料は、破産宣告。誰かこの貧乏一家に投資をしてくれる人、募集中!日本のパパママ~!!??笑。助けてっ!

Straight hair!

Infinity

 


My middle son asked me if infinity is a number or not. His own answer was "Yes, it is because I see it like this" and drew the infinity mark with his finger in the air. His friend said "No, it's not a number because you can't count" and the other girl said "I think it's SO SO". 

I think it is a concept rather than a number but how could I explain this to my 5 years old son!?


Wednesday, September 18, 2013

ワイナリーツアー

 ついに、この日が・・・!!!10人の女性とリムジンでワイナリーツアーに!!!胃潰瘍を抱える女としては、ちょっとつらかったですが、でもすっごいよかった!!!こんなにはしゃいだのは、久しぶり。行かせてくれた家族に感謝。最後、ホームシックだったけどね。笑。やっぱり家族が一番。

Finally we went to the winery tour via limo! YAY! Had great time though I had to fight with ulcer pain.  Thank  you for my dear family who let me go. I missed you guys so much, especially my fiance. I love spending time with him so much. Having fun without him is not the same being with him. 
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Tuesday, September 17, 2013

And this is what I get back....

あじゃじゃじゃじゃじゃ~!!!やられたっ!反射して見えにくいが、このめがね、博士級。ガムテープでとめております。娘ちゃんにやられてしまいました。涙。とほほ~!!!
Oh no!!!!She did it!!! She broke my glasses!!! I had to put duct tape over....now I look like a geeky professor!!!

What I do for my kids....



朝から海老の殻をむいて、天ぷらつくりまっせ。油の匂いかぐだけで、胃潰瘍女の胃はむかついているけど、学校に頑張って行く男達の腹にはちゃんとしっかり食べてもらわないとね。母ちゃんは、えらい!!!!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Ohana!



OK, you see these pictures and you don't see connection, that's ok. My daughter knew the connection today because....in Japanese, Ohana is  both flower and nose! LOL  It could be pronounced as HANA also. It is common to add O when  you want the noun to be more respectful or babyish. I was teaching her body parts in Japanese and she mastered Mimi which is ears. She loves that. In this morning, she was wearing leggings with flower embroidery. I told her "This is such pretty OHANA" (in Japanese), and she all of sudden touched her nose!!! It was SOOOOOOOOO cute and I thought my daughter is genius! Why not!?

お嬢様に最近顔の部分を日本語で教えてるんだけど、耳フェチらしく、耳しか言わない。他の部分も一生懸命(本当かよ!?)教えてるのに。

だが、今朝お花の刺繍がしてあるパンツをはいていて、そのお花を指差してなんか言ってるから、「かわいいお花だね~」って言ったら、まずは「かわいい」にすぐ反応(もちろんダンス)した後、何かひらめいた顔をして、鼻を指差した!!!

確かに!座布団一枚!!!ご名答!!!!

わかっているんだね。あきらめずに、どんどん日本語で話しかけよう。子供の誰か一人位日本語しゃべってくれるといいね。

Sunday, September 15, 2013

森の家

http://www.foresthousemanhattan.org/

こちら、夏の間に家族でお世話になった、素敵教室。感謝。

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Congratulations!

Yes, this is it. I will be the gold fish who was in what I needed, water to live but hey, look around, gold fish! There are better environment I could live with! I really need changes in my job. I love being a nurse, this won't change, that's for sure. But I need better place to work. I do love where I work. This is where I started and I will never regret about my current work place. Yet, every morning I have to tell my boys "I see you tomorrow" and that "tomorrow" is only about 30 minutes in busy morning while they are half awake and rushed. Half of time I am yelling at them to hurry up and half of time I am in kitchen busying myself to get their breakfast and lunch ready. 

If I change my job or change shifts, I could stay with boys more often. I miss them so much. I love my daughter and now I am catching up quality time being with her since boys are back to school. 

I have only 1 body with 24 hours a day. I wanna be with my fiance, I just wanna cuddle with him and be together, chatting about our bright future and dream life style. I want to be with my oldest son supporting his future and showing him love. I wanna be with my middle son to show him more of this world. I wanna be with my princess to laugh together all the time. I have so many other people I wanna see but I am just tired. 

I need changes. What can I do? How could I improve quality of my life? What's my priority? What are things I can't miss to do in my life? I don't even have time to think.....

OK, I give myself award. I am going to winery tour on Sunday, just me and moms. I am going to enjoy time and accompany to refresh, this Sunday will be the switch. I am going to be new me. I already became US citizen, changed my name, changing my hair style next week, I am going to be in different element of me. I won't change who I am but I could place myself somewhere I should belong with my loved ones.

Fiance, I am ready to marry you. This will be the best changes of me. I love you and I can't wait to be your wife!!! 

Thursday, September 12, 2013

爪切り大好き?


あじゃじゃ。フラッシュたいちゃったから、目つぶっちゃったね。これ、足の爪を切るふり。このお嬢様、なんでもIndependentで、いいやら、困ったやら。トイレにいきたがるけど、なかなかオマルで出来ない。おまるの横にいつもおしっこやうんこがある。ふと思い出したけど、サンタもそうだったな。いつも絶対におしっこやうんちがはみ出ていたな・・・と。サンタに会いたいなあ。そう思うと、いきなり死んじゃっても、サンタに会えると思うと、死ぬのも悪くないな。また一緒に寝てくれるかな?

 

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Monday, September 9, 2013

First day @ kindergarten


YAY! Happy First day of Kindergarten!!!!

Sunday, September 8, 2013

2020年 東京

いやいや、東京が候補にあがっている事も、今日(あ、昨日)が発表日だった事も知らなかった、世離れ人間です。

2020年に東京でオリンピック!

びびび~ん!ときたよっ!

そりゃなんせ、オリンピックと言えば私なのよっ!

なんせ、

長男2000年 シドニーオリンピック

次男2008年 北京オリンピック

長女2012年 ロンドンオリンピック

なんですよ~!うはは。

2020年、最後の子を産もう!そして、その子に、Tokyoっていう名前をつけてあげよう。別に東京産まれの私じゃないけど、よくBrooklyn とか、Madisonとか、ParisとかChinaとか都市の名前を子供につけるじゃない?それと一緒で、私の子供にもTokyoっていう名前をつけちゃうぞ!

2016年はどうします~?っていう話が出ているけど、それはちっとかんがえてみましょう。

楽しみっ!早くTokyoに会いたいっ!

I didn't know Japan was aiming for Olympic and I also didn't know it was the decision day for 2020 Olympic yesterday! 

Congratulations to my dear country, Japan!!!

YAY!!!!

So, I felt so much....so much.....so much......destiny!!!

Yes, Olympic represents me!!!

My oldest son was born in 2000, Sydney Olympic

My second son was born in 2008, Beijing Olympic

My daughter was born in 2012, London Olympic

Yes, I am going to have a baby on 2020 and I will so name the child TOKYO!!! I know people with names like Brooklyn, Madison, Paris, China....so why not TOKYO!?

I know I wasn't born in Tokyo nor raised there but Kawasaki won't be as cool as Tokyo. Mommy is very trendy! 

Oooooooohhhhhhhhh, can't wait to meet my Tokyo in 2020!!!!

What? How about 2016??? Well, let me discuss with honey bunny.....lol!!!!! 


Saturday, September 7, 2013

ぷっつん!!!

ああああああああああああああっ!仕事場で泣いたことなんて一度もないのに、今日は、ぼろぼろと泣いてしまった。

すっごい苦手なSupervisorがいる。しゃべり方も、彼女の首の振り方も、彼女の体臭も、彼女の態度もなにもかもが気に障る。

仕事は大好き。仕事をちゃんとやっている自信はすごくある。自信がない私なのに、これだけ自信を持っていえるんだから、本当だと思う。

だけど、世の中人の悪い所ばかりをツンツンっつっついてくる人がいる。

それが、この彼女。

でもこれも、宇宙からのメッセージ。私も気をつけろって事だよね。他人の悪は蜜の味?だっけ!!??不幸な話や、悪い事をした話、そういうのって目につくし、話題にしたくなる。

そういうのを頭や心で思っても、表に出さず、いい所に目をやり、耳をたたせ、そして心を開いて、それを相手に伝えてあげようと思った。

彼女は悲しい人。人の悪い事しか見えない、盲目さん。人の悪い所しか聞けない、難聴さん。人の悪い所しか学べない、精神病。

彼女もそんな病気から這い上がれるように、見守ってあげよう。うん。がんばれ。

I am really pissed. I just want to vomit all the ugly feelings I have towards this very particular supervisor. I had never cried at work before until today. Well, yes I had tears for other reasons but not because of supervisor. I have so much I wanna say about her.

However, I am in this position, all miserable and hurt because of her, because the universe wants me to. Or I may have attracted the universe for me to feel this way. I must learn something out of this.

She is very sad person who can't see, hear, and feel bad things. She must be blind, deaf, and mentally damaged. She is sick. 

 I am a nurse, proud to be a nurse, I must look after her, I must make sure she could get out of her illness. I am there for you. I help you getting better.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Love dating this man! Oh no, no more dating!? Hmmm.....then....love being with my fiance!!!





この間行ったWeddingでやった、Photo booth。楽しかったなあ、これ。コスプレか!?

Great adventure

ああ、ちゅかれた~!!!でもこの日は遊園地日和だったな。天気も暑くもなく、寒くもなく、遊園地はちょうどいいお客さんの数!また来年も行こうね?

今回、長男のお友達も参加してくれました。助かった。じゃないと、次男と長男の乗り物はレベルが違うから、楽しめなかったもんね、この子が来てくれなかったから。

夏休みの終わりです。

早く学校始まってくれ~!!!アメリカ、長すぎだよ、休み。

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Happy birthday party at chuckyecheese!

Back to school!

夏の間2ヶ月間学校をお休みしました。でも、昨日からまた始まりました。いろんな理由をつけて、やっぱりDrop offしようと思ったけど、癖になりそうなので、つらいけど、ぐっと我慢して、さっそく勉強。で、この時間。午前3時。やっとひとつ課題が終わった。週末までにまた2つやらないといけない。

若いうちに勉強しなかったばちなんだろうけど、若いうちにしてたら、今みたいに素直に学べなかったかも。なんせひねくれてた子だったからね・・・。

うちは、ダーリンも大学生、もちろん長男は中学生、次男はKindergarden、私も大学生。学生じゃないのはお姫様だけだけど、彼女も学んで生きているから、学生だよね・・・。Student discountで、Rentも食費も安くなればいいのになあ・・・。

長男に、あれしろ、これしろってうるさいい母ちゃんだけど、今学期からは、何もするな!何かしたかったら、本気でそれを私に見せて、納得させてくれ!と、すべてのお稽古事を切った。後悔するかもしれないけど、まあ、いいや。35になっても学校に行く母ちゃんの子だもん、一筋縄じゃない事はわかっているよ。

 Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh, back to school! Yes, my schooling restarted as of yesterday, that's why I am writing this at 3am after finishing one assignment. Oh boy, I am just not good at studying!!! I know many people won't take so much time to do one little assignment but for me, it takes for ever. I am not just good at doing whatever. As I look at my fiance who hardly studies and gets A, I feel jealousy. Life is not fair!!!

As I look at my oldest son who is not good at so many things, he reminds me of myself. He is underestimating himself and lazy. That was me. I was afraid to challenge and fail. I did whatever I had to do but I never did extra.

I really hope he is watching me and my fiance who are going back to school in our 30's and realize that's not a good idea! LOL

Oh well. Let's see what would happen to him. I am very sure he won't have "normal" life, after all, he is my son. We are weirdos.  LOL LOL LOL